Thank you Delfin
and zjw and davai and all a yous.
But as far as therapy I was kind of thinking maybe I better do a self directed program.
Part of me is like, "Just put a lid on it and ignore it, suck it up, forget about it". I mean I just do not know. Another part of me is like, "Why even bother at this point"? and another is like "You have to do this, forget other people or what they think, people are largely ignorant and selfish- just forge ahead like you did as a kid and fly solo"
Now do not take it personally about the ignorant and selfish comment, this is many decades of experience IRL although I
know you guys are all smart enough to know I am not speaking of anyone here.