and as far as family and support. I have a couple friends here that have been amazing. Most of our family lives on the East coast and frankly I dont think they care at this point. We've managed to lose just about every friend and family member we had because of drinking. So I sit in Cali. basically alone with my 15 year old daughter. and I can't tell you the regret and guilt I have regarding her... There aren't enough sorries in the world. What an evil thing alcohol is yet it's so socially acceptable. I was literally offered a drink by my friend last night and I just thought "are you kidding me?"