My AXBF is gone from my home, a situation I have fantasized about for awhile. The chaos is gone. Peace and calm and freedom flow through my home. Yes, I am taking care of my son and my house by myself. But in all honestly, I was doing most of that anyway, only with tons of added stress, mess and drama while AXBF was living here.
I have dreams, aka nightmares, that he is still here, still doing the same things...scaring me with unpredictable moods and activities, starting arguments, etc. What a relief to wake up instead to only my baby crying. Even if I am the only one getting up with him. Like I said, that part hasn't changed much anyway.
AXBF is in treatment at the moment, so this situation is temporary. I imagine there will be some sort of shared custody when he gets out if he is serious about recovery, but he will not be coming back to my home. He was kicked out, then chose to go to treatment I think as a last resort.
Warm thoughts and best wishes to you.