30th Day Sober
Hello
I am a male in my early 20s living in South England.
I am on my 30th day, which is the second longest period I have been sober for about 7 years. I am trying so hard, I have managed to socialize in pubs, drinking soft drinks, and being around friends whilst drinking.
Initially the first 2 weeks was very hard for me. Then I had a very good 2 weeks feeling positive, everything seemed to be improving, I didn't even want to drink. However over the last 3 or 4 days I have been getting intense cravings like before. I am feeling seriously depressed. I am very impulsive, I just keep getting up to drive to the shop to buy drink, but then hold myself back. I just want to taste a cold drink, and mask these low feelings with the blanket of being drunk.
I am going out of my mind.
What do I do?