Of course you are afraid to let go of something that has become part of your life, just think of it this way, getting a divorce, moving to a new home, giving up smoking,...there are so many things that are scary in this world. Just remind yourself that in giving up your addictions, only GOOD things can happen. It gets better and it gets easier as you go along but just think to yourself. I will not drink or use drugs just for today and then if I feel like it tomorrow, I can do it then. Then when tomorrow becomes today, wake up and say it again. Quiting "FOREVER" is impossilbe, but not using TODAY is WELL within your reach! You CAN DO IT! You deserve better in this life! I did rehab and it TURNED MY LIFE AROUND! I put as much work into rehab as I put into drinking and using drugs everyday and I believe I am and will continue to be a success story! Sure I struggle but I always know I can stay sober JUST FOR TODAY!
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