I hope when you said that you will check back means you will continue to read and post during those 2 months. I'm also the kind of person that likes to set deadlines. It's a great motivator for me. I've done it many times with drinking also. For me, whenever I would reach that deadline, like not drinking for a month, etc., the urge to drink would increase. Sometimes I would give in, other times I would fight the urge for a week or so, then set another deadline and go for that. I will be at 8 months tomorrow and am thinking that 9 months would be even better so I'm setting my sights on that. Besides, I haven't had a sober June or July in many many years, so.... All mind games but it's been working for me. I know there are better ways to quit drinking, but it's the only one that makes sense to me right now. Reading posts daily on SR is a big help with this. So, you're not alone with this sort of thinking (other than I know trying to moderate is a joke for me). Good luck. John