Please help ...
Hello to all fellow addicts, friends!
I'm withdrawing from codeine addiction again for the third time in over a year. Though I only went back out this time for about a month, I know I still need to go through this pain.
I'm not even sure what to say right now. It seemed for the past almost week, things were really turning around for me. Starting with getting off the codeine again, then starting to get back into my routine of recovery again. Then a guy I've had feelings for basically all year asked me to start seeing him, knowing full well all about my relapse. Then a possible good job opportunity coming along, interview on Friday. Then getting back into meetings and the Church Choir, finally starting to get the whole higher power thing. This guy was supposed to call me and didn't yet.
I feel like everything else may follow. Nothing really ever seems to work out for me, so far. Maybe that attitude is the reason. I'm just feeling really down right now, can't get to a meeting tonight.
Thanks all for any words of wisdom!!
S.