Hi Savana
I want to add my name down to that as well!!! I was in a shop today and I saw a birthday card. It was the same one as he bought me last year at this time. We were on holiday together he had been sober for 8 days and I was so proud of him. Well I stood in the shop and cried. I know how you feel. Its like taking 4 steps forward and three back but hey we are still one forwards to where we were before.
Alc is a horrid disease it sure wrecks lives and dreams and thats what hurts. Someone told me "its not how things were, nor how they could be - its how they are". I couldnt deal with the present. The future was wonderful - married, gardens, children but hey snap back to reality and what is it like?? Coming home to him asleep in the middle of the floor. Late night calls from the hospital, affairs, no money, etc...
There has to be better days. Look forwards and remember you always have that extra step behind you.
Hug