Great recollection of your drinking past.
I relate to parts. I went to the hospital in 2012 after a night of boozing.
They kept me for about 10 hours to see how I would end up I figure.
Got a bunch of free, $8k, tests...insurance scam.
I quit because I started having random panic attacks. They were terrible.
Since I quit, no more attacks.
I use God, SR and Google for my recovery. I pray all the time...to myself.
I was 80 days clean before found this place.
I googled....how long to feel normal...SR popped up.
Been to AA. No sponser. Just like minded folks that I can shake hands w and get a hug for hitting AA milestones. I believe in God, so AA is good enough for me.
Bottom line is, don't drink.
Stay clean and the rest will be fine.