You're not a bother! I agree with the person who suggested you keep a journal. Sometimes it helps just to get it out -- stream of consciousness. Sometimes I find that writing about it helps me get a better understanding of what's wrong.
Try bergamot - an essential oil. It has a citrus scent, and it's uplifting for depression. I put a couple of drops on a cotton ball and keep it on my desk at work. No one notices, but the scent helps me.
Or try burning sage. It's inexpensive... about $6 at a store that sells crystals, etc. Might be cheaper in other areas (I'm very close to NY City).
I also listen to meditative music. Free on youtube.
Please take care of yourself :-)