achelus, what im reading ya typin about very well could have solutions in the program.
have you worked the steps?
wheres your HP in all this?
heres something I suggest:
quit kikin yerself in the arse. ya made mistakes. yer human and will make mistakes just like the rest of us, which theres solutions for.
it is said our past is a very valuable possession we have. lots of lessons of what does and doesn't work.
this is all going to be a part of your valuable possession.
so, how bout them steps?
how bout that HP?