sh777au

Hi!! My name is Simon & I come from Australia.....I Joined this board over a year ago & haven't signed in for about 10 months or so....I have been off Marijuana for over a year now, although I fell from Grace about 2 weeks ago & smoked one joint of a Marijuana bud & got stoned......this joint lowered my immune sytem & I caught the Flu. I haven't touched Pot for two weeks & today I slipped & rebelled big time! I smoked 4 joints of Pot leaf.
Let me tell you why Pot is dangerous to me.....I suffer from a mild form of Paranoid Psychosis which is caused by hormones & was diagnosed years before I started smoking Pot seriously......I also suffer from Clinical Depression, & my Doctor said I was "obsessive" not Obsessive Compulsive.
What makes it worse is that I am a Believer & I should know better than to smoke Marijuana when I know how dangerous it is, (having a blood brother who also suffers from Mental Illness & smokes Pot heavily....although he would like to give the habit up)......I don't know what makes me want to do stupid things like Pot at my age,(which is 37)......I'm going to commit to this board in order to get better.....
Please help me board,

feeling confused,




Yours Sincerely,


Simon