Originally Posted by
ThisTimePlease 
Not really sure on what steps to take aa is not an option in my area..
May not be your option, but there are meetings - at least 6 per week listed ......
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Help is out there - be it AA, rehab etc. SR is great resource but may not be a stand alone platform. For many it is, but as with any program we all vary.
Find what you need and take the action - it may save your life.
Keep posting.....