Thanks. For the time being I'm sticking to a couple of good friends, my therapist, my family and the info I'm finding here. I'm reading the steps and Just For Today readings. I'm trying to do things that make me happy (new book, taking a walk...) instead allowing myself to dwell in a state of perpetual anxiety. Had a great session with my therapist today, and put a lot of things in perspective, at least for now. Frankly if I felt unwelcomed at a meeting for the reason you stated, right now I think I'd fall apart, so I hope to be able to try meetings, but not yet. I do appreciate your advice.