Nicki Jay get someone to take you through the Doctors Opinion and you will find exactly what you are suffering from , God will only help those who are entirely ready to throw the towel in and ask for help , it is a program of change otherwise you will drink again , fact is you say you earnestly asked God to help you ? then YOU drank again for whatever excuse so now you ''blame '' God for you lifting a drink ''many of us tried to hold onto our old ideas and the result was nil , that s ''why you drank again '' your own fault not Gods because your head told you so for whatever reason , booze seemed the answer at the time so you drank . Get honest find out exactly what you suffer from there is far more to sobriety than stopping drinking but stopping and ''staying stopped ''is the beginning to a new way of life , take care.
Regards Stevie recovered 12 03 2006