Originally Posted by
CCFCAFC 
Unfortunately mine was 2 nights ago. Went to a concert that I was very much looking forward to, loaded up on drinks before hand and during and can't remember 95% of the gig - or actually getting home. Saw photos of myself the next day asleep on the train home. Blackouts are the worst. According to my friends I didn't even 'seem that drunk' yet memories aren't being formed. It's horrible and I hate it so much. I always assume I did the most stupid/ridiculous things while in that stage and I probably did do some stupid things - things I would never do when sober. I can go for days/weeks without drinking but when I do I just can't handle it, my first several drinks i'm 'fine' - don't feel drunk and then bam one more and it's lights out. I am fortunate in life - I'm 29, I have a good family, wife and son with another boy on the way and it's time to put a stop to this. I don't even know it got to this but every night out is the same. And I know how messed up this is - but I almost feel like I need to have another big session just to prove to myself that I can control it and it doesn't control me - ridiculous.
After I became sober and told the people I know, couple of them said "but I don't think I ever saw you drunk" or "you never appeared to be too drunk" when the fact of the matter was that I was blackout drunk and could not remember anything about what happened "the night before." The only thing I could tell them was that I was pretty good at hiding it. Just because I wasn't falling over or becoming belligerent and violent, and generally good at keeping a check on myself (most of the time) no one knew how drunk I actually was. I could appear "normal" to others, yet remember nothing the next day about the previous night.
I wonder how many people are like this and are able to get away with and carry on drinking when they shouldn't because, from all outward appearances, they seem "fine" when drinking.