You can get sober. You can. Drinking never makes anything better, really.
Getting sober alone is incredibly hard. We get medical help for cancer but not for addiction. For some reason we are told to just be tough. Please find support - there are many options - medical, IOP, addiction, AA, Smart, etc. You are swimming against a strong current trying to do this alone. I would advocate medical treatment that uses evidence based treatment but you can also call AA any time, 24/7 and talk to a person.
I know a number of young alcoholics, in recovery. It is very hard for them to accept the disease. However, they do and live very full lives. They also don't end up subjecting spouses and kids to their addiction because they got help early.