I completely relate to all of this, Thomas. I have always been a pretty angry person, drinking or not. It's something I'm really taking seriously now, as part of my sobriety. Learning how to manage my anger, frustration, irritation, etc, especially in regards to others. It's why I began meditating in the first place, I think. A favorite teacher of mine says something like "anger is the child of pride." I have found this to be true: when I sit back and observe the thoughts that occur when I am angry, they are almost always self-centered....wanting to be right, wanting things to be my way, wanting to "run the whole show" as the Big Book puts it. So, for me, a big part of being less angry is finding some real, true humility. Reminding myself that I am just a small part of things.
Just my 2 cents
