Hi Miss
Hearbreak sucks.
This guy was not any good for me as he is alcohol and drug dependent, obnoxious and quite uncaring.
So think about the above statement. The reality is, he was a jerk and wanted to use you for sex. Obviously that is not what you want, and you deserve to be treated in a way that is consistent with your needs. I had to learn the hard way that I allow people to treat me poorly. I'm not a victim and can walk away. I tend to look to men to 'save' me, 'complete' me, make me feel better. They can become my drug. But that never works.
I was broken to pieces in my last relationship. But I realized that I let it all happen. I wasn't having a gun held to my head. I learned valuable lessons.
Remember what he is, not what you 'romanticized' him to be. Kind of like alcohol huh?