Here it is at 12:30 am. I just barely got home. I made the tail end of that meeting tonight. I really need to learn how to live one day at a time. I focus way too much on the future. Plus, I am already thinking about how difficult life will be without booze.
This is alcoholism for you (cunning, baffling, powerful.) After a couple of days sober, I think of how good a night with the bottle would be (despite the sheer physical and mental hell I have gone through on account of years of that.)
On a good note, my friend (possible sponsor) called me from Hawaii, to see how I was doing. He said that he was very proud of me for not taking a drink, and it offers hope. It is moments like these that really inspire me to keep going.
Anyways, here is to the next 24.