That makes perfect sense.
I think you have fallen into a sort of trap. That is, you've relied on circumstances and fears (like being in rehab or the threat of being homeless) to keep you from drinking. That may work in the short run but you need a long term solution.
I'd recommend that you stop judging your life by the standards that society in general judges us by, like "work", "relationship", "money" and and the place you are living. It's ok to want more, but you're not going to get it all at once.
Find a passion. Something you really like to do and focus on that for awhile. Hopefully it will become something that can make you some money in the long term. But in the beginning it should just be something you enjoy.
Live by the principles which are the steps and I have a feeling that the positive things will begin to appear more attractive than the alcohol.
All the best to you.