I think I probably worded my last post wrongly with " as much as I want it to". Of course I don't "want" to drink because if I did start again, id be straight back into hospital. I think you're spot on with missing the social aspect of things as many of my hobbies involved alcohol directly or indirectly. Like I said I think it's the first time this change on my life has actually hit me properly, regarding social activities, and due to me being in hospital and laid up for so long. I dont think I realised until now how much of a change it was going to be.