It will take as many times as it takes to get it right Jillian .
The self recrimination , the guilt , the sickness, i remember it .
Lots of people were hopeless but they are now here and sober.
None of us has any secret knowledge , i hardly know anything about life !
When i learned to ride a bike i fell off a lot , i didn't throw the bike in the hedge, lay on the ground flat on my back and not get up again . I wanted to ride more than anything .
Get back to it , keep on learning .
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