Hi Sad....I can understand how you may feel...I have felt that way too. There is nothing you can do to change your H drinking. You can only make changes for yourself and your children. As others have suggested please come over to the Friends and Family forum. You will find others there that have been through or are going through all that you have. Al-anon will also help you to understand this horrible disease. Remember you didn't cause it, can't control it and can't cure it. Hugs to you and your little ones....
Love, Patty