Originally Posted by
joandmelandhan 
I let my AV take over and didn't ride it out like I have done every other day so far. It'd probably only have taken an hour to ride it out but I was tired of the fight. I don't think I have the self belief that I can do it for long enough for the pain to subside. All I can do is keep trying and put my all onto it.
One day at a time, friend. Just focus on today......I have to stop myself from looking ahead....it's too overwhelming for me to think of a lifetime of sobriety. I just have to get through today. Hang in there and glad you're back!