Originally Posted by
Babescake 
I'm sad too because now my husband is talking he wants out of the marriage because this was the last straw. I feel ill with how I've hurt him and the rest of my family.
I empathize with how you are feeling, and I hope your mistake does not mean the end of your marriage. I have done what you did 1,000 times and know the regret and self-loathing well. As the poster who said look in the mirror and say "Thank You" - as bad as it all seems, it could have been worse. Brush yourself off and remember that you are blessed that your experiment didn't have worse consequences.