Hi - if you aren't working outside the home right now, perhaps doing some volunteer work will help you focus your energy into something positive, something you can feel really good about.
I signed up at
www.volunteermatch.org to watch children for parents attending classes on domestic violence, and I will be doing it a few nights a month at the YWCA in my county. I did have to fill out some paper work and go through a background check, and am attending a training class all day on this Saturday, but I think this is a good plan to help rebuild in recovery.
Most of us feel absolutely wretched about ourselves, so maybe doing something objectively good which requires sobriety will help you rebuild your sense of self worth - ? Something to consider!