Originally Posted by
rah555 
I think my triggers from HALT are lonely and tired. I have experienced a lot of hurt and disappointment. At times I get filled with despair and end up saying screw it.
Well the booze is a false antidote to that despair. It only makes the situation worse. You're back here for a reason--alcohol is the problem, not the solution.
I apologize for not remembering every detail of your story if I've asked this before--have you considered adding AA or another recovery program or therapy to your recovery plan? Any of those might help with the loneliness. Just a thought.