You are right doggonecarl. I had to drive 20 minutes to the store. I did second guess myself along, the way. Knew it was a poor choice. Just one more time was what I was hearing. I had a ton of stuff to do that night and this was the partner to help me do it. Or so I thought.
The 6 hours that I drank before passing out in bed. I've already wasted that much time today with regret, shame, disgust etc.