Hi and welcome SNeoAllah
I see a lot about what your husband wants and expects, but you have just as much right to insist on your boundaries.
If a relationship is abusive in any way, and no matter if it seems comparatively better now than before, I think you are within your rights to wonder if this is the best life you can possibly give yourself.
I'm sorry for what brings you to SR, but you'll find a lot of support and encouragement here, and in our Family And Friends forums too.