Hi dee, i dont have a plan other then twlling myself im not gonna drink... but then when i make it till night time i say to myself oh ill start tomorrow. ... i want to stay sober and im commited and then i have one thought and it all goes out the window.. i did so well before 119 days now i flip flop between wanting it and learning to deal with reality... feelings emotions ect. It should be very easy i feel like crap when i drink physically so why do i still want it?