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Hi. So like all of us i took alot of pride in counting my days. Especially when i got past 10 for me it was such an accomplishment. Yesterday was my birthday and i promised myself thats my last day. I feel like crap drinking. ..it doesnt make me the happy fun who cares about anything type. Just makes me unmotivated and tired. I relapsed on day 3 this time around. Today should be 6. But now its one again... i think instead of counting my days in the beginning im just gonna commit to 24 hours and then when im feeling good i can look back at april 17 and see what day im on. Im not so much worried about the withdrawal im woreied about how to control the anger and frustration am im never normally like frustrated. It all comes back to learning how to cope with feelings that alcohol used to hide. I appreciate everyones support on here and truly look up to all of you for your strength and determination. I loved when i got to a good sober place in my 119 days prior. I felt great,happy ... i would love to fast forward past the beginning part of this journey but the struggle only makes you stronger. Thanks for listening to me vent! I commit to 24 hours