Hi vulturine, That was a big day; a day, no doubt, that will stay with you for the rest of your life....
How you view, think and your perspective about yesterday will change as you change and as time goes by.
His mum reaching for a connection with others that cared for her son is understandable and beautiful.
I am glad that you could be there for her.
I hope in time that she can come to some peace with the loss of her son.
You said you are keeping yourself to yourself, I understand but it is also good to talk and it sounds like you have been through a lot.
Have you got someone to talk with,? sharing here is good or a councillor, perhaps someone you trust when you are ready.