I did it! I hung in there for one minute, then another...then I scraped together the will to call a friend, she came and listened to my ramblings all night long...she's asleep in the other room! She quietly listened while I stomped about, madly declaring I wasn't going to give in...I binged on carbs and sugar while I spat out the devesatating effects my first drink would have. I am exhausted from hanging in there minute by minute....all day/afternoon/night I felt something inside me give in...I felt like at some point I was going to break and give in...and it devestated me....it tore me up to see my sobriety go down the drain...so I kept hanging on...and hanging on and hanging on..and now it's over! I am going to bed SOBER!
A GENUINE thank you for all the support...I read these comments a million times tonight. Thank you for supporting me! I DID IT! I can't believe I did it!