Barely Hanging On!!!!!
Barely Hanging On!!!!!
It's happened....a stressful situation has let out the demon! My AV is in full swing...my head is going bonkers...my heart is racing.. I have calmed myself down quite a bit and am not drinking...BUT as soon as I get home (1 hour) I WANT WANT WANT WANT WANT WANT WANT WANT MY WINE!!!
OMG! THIS is making me cray cray! My head won't stop....the urge to drink is OVERWHELMING!. My chest is constricted and my head is screaming a giant F-IT!!
WHY! WHY is this so frigin hard! I don't want to go back...I don't want to drink...but the urge is so overpowering! I hate this! I will I always have to fight this thing? I was doing so good! And right now I'm in a dark corner shaking and crying desperately trying not to give in!
WTF!!!
OMG! THIS is making me cray cray! My head won't stop....the urge to drink is OVERWHELMING!. My chest is constricted and my head is screaming a giant F-IT!!
WHY! WHY is this so frigin hard! I don't want to go back...I don't want to drink...but the urge is so overpowering! I hate this! I will I always have to fight this thing? I was doing so good! And right now I'm in a dark corner shaking and crying desperately trying not to give in!
WTF!!!
Hang in there it will pass, AA has a hotline there in Ontario, maybe consider calling and talking to someone, although RR is for me I have called them in the past, a few times they sent someone to talk to me, I did whatever it took to avoid a relapse, I feel for you as we can have some pretty crazy days.
All the best
Andrew
All the best
Andrew
"I was doing so good! And right now I'm in a dark corner shaking and crying desperately trying not to give in!"
I've heard my alcoholism described as a disease of perception...The fact you came here and posted PROVES you ARE DOING GOOD! You don't have to give in.
Have anyone you can call to let it out? Coming to SR was a smart move.
I've heard my alcoholism described as a disease of perception...The fact you came here and posted PROVES you ARE DOING GOOD! You don't have to give in.
Have anyone you can call to let it out? Coming to SR was a smart move.
Try this & excellent job reaching out
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...e-surfing.html
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-cravings.html
if it helps send a pm
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...e-surfing.html
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-cravings.html
if it helps send a pm
There is nothing good, magical, or special about booze.
It is like marijuana, cocain, or heroin. It is a drug.
It is a mind altering toxin that has ever increasing brain damaging effects.
You are an addict. Fight your addiction.
Stay clean. It gets easier.
It is like marijuana, cocain, or heroin. It is a drug.
It is a mind altering toxin that has ever increasing brain damaging effects.
You are an addict. Fight your addiction.
Stay clean. It gets easier.
I did it! I hung in there for one minute, then another...then I scraped together the will to call a friend, she came and listened to my ramblings all night long...she's asleep in the other room! She quietly listened while I stomped about, madly declaring I wasn't going to give in...I binged on carbs and sugar while I spat out the devesatating effects my first drink would have. I am exhausted from hanging in there minute by minute....all day/afternoon/night I felt something inside me give in...I felt like at some point I was going to break and give in...and it devestated me....it tore me up to see my sobriety go down the drain...so I kept hanging on...and hanging on and hanging on..and now it's over! I am going to bed SOBER!
A GENUINE thank you for all the support...I read these comments a million times tonight. Thank you for supporting me! I DID IT! I can't believe I did it!
A GENUINE thank you for all the support...I read these comments a million times tonight. Thank you for supporting me! I DID IT! I can't believe I did it!
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