As an alcoholic I lack emotional maturity. I want everything to go my way NOW. When it doesn't I feel sorry for myself and dig a pity hole to climb into. I blame myself and everyone around me for how I feel.
To recover I have to learn that it took me a long time to get this messed up. It takes time, and help and support, to grow up and change. I have to put things in perspective, be grateful for what I have, and stop feeling sorry for myself.
Changing the way I think about pretty much everything is necessary to recover. Otherwise I'm just white knuckling my sobriety which is insanity making. Hang in there.