I thought I was protecting my XAH's addictions, until I stopped. Low and behold, everyone knew anyways. I also reached out to my old friends and told them the truth, that I was ashamed for anyone to know how bad life had gotten. They came back with support and love.
It's great you have a good family support system as well, that means the world. I was so afraid, but I put my kids into counseling and utilize all support I can, including the wonderful folks here at SR. My kids are fine, not without issue, but ultimately just fine. And you know what, I will be too.
Hugs to you. Keep coming back, we are glad you are here!