Hi everyone. I'm wrapping up Day 5 and this is my first time to post. Have been reading forums since Day 1, but today feeling the need to hold myself accountable by joining. I had about a 3 week stretch without drinking in early Jan, then a few 2 to 3 day runs since then. This is following at least 3 different attempts of a few weeks to month each last year.
Each time it feels a little bit harder, and each time I go back to drinking I feel more lost and sick of it all. I just feel done this time, but I know I've been there before. So this time I'm reaching out-- first here, then when I feel a little stronger maybe a meeting or therapy. I've got 3 beautiful kids, a busy, demanding job with a large team, a poor marriage, and I'm tired and anxious all of the time. Also feel like I'm hanging on by a thread. I've been able to fake it for the last few years, but that's been slipping away and really close to imploding. So here I am. Look forward to making this journey with you all.