Originally Posted by
noneever 
I'm abandoning will power- it just doesn't work for me.
As you know by being a member of this forum, there are many ways other than sheer willpower to get your sober. Pick the ones that resonate with you and work them into the dirt. It is pretty clear to me that you
really want to be sober.
I contend that even if you need to take a "life" timeout (treatment, rehab, leave of absence...) its worth it to you save your life.