thinking forever is entirely too large of a scope for me it really made me wanna drink all the more thinking of it like that. 1 day at a time was much more easier to handle. In time forever seemed mroe realistic.
But even 1 day at a time i grieved. felt like my best friend had died or i had lost my left arm or something it was terrible .But booze was also the worst friend i ever had too cause me dos much trouble and pain so i couldnt understand why i was so upset that i was missing out and such. Missing out on what? hangovers and problems etc...? sure i wont lie as i got drunk there where good times but it always always always led to trouble. I always got screwed.
But yeah I know that grief feeling pretty well it passes.
if your drinking now hey fine tommorows a new day just dust yourself off and get back on the sober wagon as soon as you can.