Hi sk
There are reams and reams of us who've hit terrible rock bottoms.
Rock bottom. I think contemplating it is kind of like keeping the door open a crack and peeking at the beast.
I've hit so many rock bottoms- and nearly died because of it more than once- and kept right on going back to drinking.
I've come to realize I'm not a cat with 9 lives. I've had enough rock bottom experiences and lived to tell the tale, I'd really rather be done with the whole Russian roulette game. If I keep it up, the bullet is going to find me sooner rather than later.
32 years of sober and drunk unhappiness. There has got to be a better way right?