Hugs Sleeps. I have faith in you. Feeling like using doesn't mean you have to use. It's just a feeling.
I heard this song on the way into work today. I sang along and thought about you and that thread you started the other day.
PS that same ride in there was something on the radio about how you can trick your mind into tasting salt. All you have to do is tip your head back and pretend like you are shaking salt into your mouth from a shaker. Then supposedly your brain will register a salty taste in the back of your mouth. Don't fall for it Sleeps or some guy driving next to you will start laughing.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=47y5bo8wtqM