Thanks for your reply Charlie.
H.A.L.T. Hungry, angry, lonely, tired.... All major vulnerability indicators.
Anger is very much an emotion than it is internalised, it is an extremely powerful self destructive emotion, one which I can recognise but find very hard to express. I get angry, I don't say or do anything about it, instead i press down beneath the surface and let it simmer into a multitude of different resentments and self pity....
Then I press the .... It button, the does it really matter may as well have a drink button and unleash chaos.
Feeling powerless can lead to anger, there are so many situations over which we have no control, I have many many of those in my life at the moment but I know if i drink it will only take me down the path of self destruction, regret and despair... The powerlessness over people and situations still remain and nothing is gained yet so much can be lost.
Hold tight, sometimes we just have to let go and trust that today's problems will become tomorrow's solutions. People overcome all sorts of stuff in recovery, we've just got to accept that we can too.
Hugs
Elle