I wish now I'd said no!
Dee thank you for your advice. You are always here and you must spend hours offering support to everyone on here. I need to man up and have another plan - I do know that. I wish I'd played it forward. All I had to do was have an early night and it would all have been avoided.
I often wonder when I first get out and about after a binge, looking around, how many other people are going through the same thing? I remember one day getting to my local supermarket when it opened in the morning. I was getting some wine for a present (it was during a sober period) and there were 3/4 people all with their heads down in the aisle picking up their cheap booze, embarrassed about what they were doing but still needing to get their fix. It's so destructive and sad.