Ladybird......I understand your feelings....but, try not to "futuretrip" too much.
The future is unwritten....and, over time...anything can change....
Nothing stays static....not forever.....
When a person becomes a parent for the first time....in a flash...the whole world looks a bit different....
She may take on a whole different understanding of your worth as a mother...
I have seen that happen soo many times.....
I have seen lots of examples of estrangements within a family....that did not last forever.....
Your kids still have a lot of learning and maturing to go through....
Keep the faith, Ladybird.....
dandylion