Kittycat glad you are back. Stop beating yourself up and know that this time may be the last time you have to quit or have remorse if you stick to it. Im cleaning house today too. Bought a new bamboo plant as they are easy to take care of and am making a chocolate cake with peanut butter cream cheese filling and chicolate fudge glaze with peanut butter cups on top. Its going to be sinful! lol