good job on the 1 year.
I dunno if the saying "sometimes when things leave our lives we shouldnt chase after them" applys here or not? The reason I say this is based on what your saying it seems shes being disrespectful to you at this point by keeping you in limbo her act of leaving and behaving like she is now is selfish as well. Keep in mind i'm going on what little i know here. But you are still married she could at least respond to your messages once in a while she should S*** or get off the pot and vice versa. Sounds like you've dont a good job at moveing forward and getting sobered up. Maybe you'll just have to keep moving forward just without her is all as crappy as that may be.