I hear "egomaniac with an inferiority complex" a fair amount from friends in AA. The exact same thing used to dominate my thinking - 2 diametrically opposed beliefs. To make matters worse, I'd typically "believe" whichever one would cause me the most darn harm at a given time.
Getting past these sorts of old ideas and old beliefs has been vital for me to live sober......and happily (at the same time
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