It's nice that you have your son to support you. I have my husband who is supporting me since he finally realized I was killing myself. Support at home is a big help and not everyone has it. Take advantage of it and make your son proud! I think some of us don't love ourselves and maybe that's why we started drinking in the first place. I'm also a control freak and now I'm controlling my NON drinking and my good health! I spent 35 years drinking and am trying to sober up in my 50s. There are so many things to do and experience out there and I want to travel and hike and bike rather than die of cirrhosis or falling down the stairs.