Welcome back!! I have been on SR for a few years now and have dealt with some of the same feelings as you. This past NYE I decided I was done with alcohol, and haven't had a drink since. Today is my 78th day sober, and I have noticed positive impacts both physically and emotionally.
The past few days at work have been extremely stressful, and I was dealing with one crazy situation after another, and I am grateful my mind was clear. Being sober definitely can't prevent a crappy week at work, but it absolutely impacts your response to the situation.
Join the March class, I joined the January class (after flunking out of several past classes due to relapses), and the Jannies are an incredibly supportive group.
I'm glad you are here!!!
❤️ Delilah